Meaning of Life?

During the past few months or weeks, I’ve been sitting here and really pondering and why I’m always chopping and changing on what I’m heading for in life. It’s been 17 years (and a bit) since I was born and I’ve still not discovered the ‘meaning of life’.

Many people, time and time again, have been trying to answer the question or decipher the meaning. Truth be told, and probably people already know this, but we all have our own meanings or make them. Born for a reason. Lived for a reason. Died for a reason. One thing leads to another and even up until the day you die, we all still wonder, “What the hell was that all about?” due to being distracted from the ‘structure’ that’s been forced on us.


Is it better to be just a few elements and compounds rather than an organism that thinks for its self? Torments itself with questions, reasons and meanings?


People go through school and college. They know exactly what they want to do when they are older or after education. They work hard. They give up the hobbies they enjoy and love. They work and make notes over and over again on the previous notes taken in classes. They read them over and over again and memorize it. They then sit the exam. They get their results. They’re excellent results. Best in their class or school. They go out to work. Or take a degree on their career choice. 2 months working or studying....”This isn’t what I thought it would be...”. Ends up that what you thought it would be was just inside your head. You didn’t research it enough or even took the time to read about it. Didn’t talk to people or ask questions.


In fact you did read about it and talked to people but you didn’t understand yourself. You didn’t understand what interests you have. What you like or dislike. Whether you are scientific or artistic. You went by the rules which teachers fed into you and the authoritarian ways has dissolved the last of the curiosity that you had in your childhood.


Pressures of growing up fast. Celebrities, TV shows, soaps, drama, drinking, mobile phones and technology. Rush, rush, rush, to get things done and never ‘time’ to actually stay still and watch the people around you, create, preserve, change, or find personal interests. Education has taken that out and instead poured in more exams. They even structure art subjects. Is that even ‘legal’?


Government says you must do this and that to be successful. You must learn hard about that subject and take exams in order to make a good decent living.


You don’t like the subject you are studying and its grinding you down. You do bits of it and then forget about it. You procrastinate over it and put it off every day and then wait until the last minute to do it and make a who-ha and ends up being rubbish.


Why bother doing it when in that time you could be learning something that excites you, makes you curious, and interests you and it’s something you’re good at.


I find that if I’m not pushed into learning about something and that I get information shoved down my throat on it or it’s a topic I’m not interested in, I don’t learn it any better. If I take my time learning something and get it right the first time and find that there is an actual interesting bit off the side of it, I will take the time to research it and investigate it.


However, I bet people or the government would argue that everyone needs structure in education and without it, no one would learn and rather go out and drink with the benefits money they got.


How about reverse psychology? “Ok you don’t have to go to school and you can while away the hours on Facebook and Bebo but you won’t learn anything other than someone is going out with someone or someone’s been dumped. Plus you won’t get any benefits.” After a while those people would actually turn to education because it’s a human instinct to learn. If it wasn’t an instinct, we wouldn’t have the wheel or even TV.


But let’s not have an education system that shoves the information down our throats. Let’s have a system where it gets our curiosity going and not jail us up for 6 hours. Allows us to not form a career based on facts given to us but a career that we can discover ourselves through hobbies or our own interests and give our life a meaning instead of consistently drifting from career to career searching.


BTEC? Na, that doesn’t count.


Never flaming happy? Yeah, that’s me alright!


Confused person? Yeah, me again.


“I suppose it is because nearly all children go to school nowadays, and have things arranged for them, that they seem so forlornly unable to produce their own ideas.” - Agatha Christie