Cruel to be Kind?

All right so I’m sitting on the fence for this topic of conversation today on my blog though I do tend to be a confused person , contradictory and end up being one-sided. Apologies for that as I’m probably still finding my morals and I’m technically not an adult so I’m still a child growing and developing, so bare with me on this one.



Question Time last night was basically about
Nick Griffin and his party, the BNP. Yes, I bet you’re all sitting here booing me for talking about this because some people are just bored with the whole BNP thing. Generally I’m very interested in it because this a huge thing in terms of political history. It’s like sitting back and watching history in progress. We never know what the outcome of it will be; it might all die down and be forgotten about or on the other hand it may escalate into something, well, historical. Our kids may ask us when they’re doing history for school, or just in general, “What happened to politics in the last half of the 2 thousand and naughties?”. History is happening constantly and it’s our duty to take notice of it, whether its political, cultural or just in our own personal lives, and tell our future children or grandchildren what really happened. We are history, so let’s take notice.


Sorry about that, I’m not telling you guys off, it’s just my opinion remember.


So back to Question Time (QT). I watched it last night and I found I still was sitting on the wall. I do agree with SOME things Nick Griffin was talking about and I understood what he was trying to get at, but just doing it in a unjustifiable way by being a bit of a racist. The action he takes, is what I disagree with. As said on QT, they explained that instead of Nick Griffin using sentences such as deporting all the Muslims and blacks, he should instead use sentences which everyone can identify with instead of singling out minorities and using words which cushion the blow a bit . QT panel later discussed about Democracy. They were saying that we are a democratic society yet when the BNP gets a chance to make their views on topics on a show like QT, the BBC purposely chose an audience when they would obviously disagree with Nick Griffin. I have watched other QT’s and strangely enough there were less of a mixed audience. One point to make is, at the end of each QT, David thing, the ‘referee’, makes a small announcement of when, where, and who is going to be on the show in the forthcoming weeks and if you’d want to be on the show, then phone the number at the bottom of the screen. Could people who are against the BNP automatically just want to be in the audience to have their say that “Nick you’re disgusting!” etc etc. That could be a factor. His policies have gotten himself into the bullying position. Unlucky.


Today, Nick Griffin made a claim that he was bullied and I agree with that statement, however when I do think about it, it does seem to be kind of a publicity stunt or that it unfortunately looks like it. Is it one or not? We aren’t quite sure. It could be the whole plan of action of the BNP, for publicity. We don’t really know what goes on inside those little heads of theirs. They did increase their membership by an addition of 3,000 members during the course of QT and afterwards. Is it their plan? Who knows.


I believe that everyone should have a say in different topics, however I felt that the BBC set it up on QT. It wasn’t a fair panel. He was being bombarded by questions about his manifesto and views. There was an audience which was different than previous QT. But I may agree that he does sugar coat his answers to win over people and lure them into a false sense of security by joining his party. He also had a boost in the votes for BNP because the rest of the parties have been dilly-dallying about expenses and whether or not she said that or he said this, blah blah blah. The people have no other parties to vote for. YES I do believe in people having a say and a vote, i.e Democracy. NO I disagree with government not being able to decide over tiny weeny topic when there are much bigger topics to talk about that are urgent. The world is falling apart, there’s a recession and the polar bears are dying, and some political parties decide to pay their house in London with the people’s money. That is a disgrace. That is the downside of democracy, it takes ages to come to a decision. The downside of autocracy is that the people do not get as much of a say. We need to compromise between the two or take a risk. I want the world to be free and that it can say whatever it likes without offending Tom, Dick and Harry. People need to stop being so uptight and just accept that people are not going to agree with their opinions. I say that people should learn to compromise and respect different opinions and not get in a tizzy about it.


I do not totally agree with the BNP and I do not agree with the way other parties are condoning it for their views. BNP need refined and to soften the harshness before people eventually accept other people’s views and respect them. Who said right-wing is the RIGHT party anyway and it’s the best with its morals, conduct, and actions? We’re in a recession because of them. They’re spending tax payers money. They got GB into a war and it hasn’t made much of a difference. What can we do? BNP might do the same after all. We could try another style of government to see if it works such as autocracy? It’s not easy to do, to reform an established government which has been in place for a very long time, but I just don’t see where it has gotten us. I’m not saying trust the BNP and vote for them. I’m saying we need a party we CAN trust and so far I say, don’t trust any parties.


I’m still gonna sit on the fence until things lighten up. Am I wrong for doing that? I’m not a glory hunter. I’m just.....gonna.....run away now..... *sprints off*

The Sadness of School and Technology.

All right so I’m really quite late this week in getting a post up because it’s been a bit of a hectic weekend. I had a hockey match over in Poleglass against Belfast Harlequins and well, it didn’t go quite to plan (plan was to win basically). I haven’t played for quite a few weeks now and it’s getting me down. There is just so much work to be done for medical science and IT, it’s unbelievable. Generally there would be a heck of a lot of work to be done without the unfortunate event of having flu and then my coursework being saved by other coursework, so I lost a 3rd of it. But I’m catching up, and just as well as most of the assignments are to be in next week, either draft or final copy.




IT isn’t getting much of a look in. I have 3 assignments to hand in there next week, two are finals and the other just a draft thank goodness. *sigh* I think it’s going to be another hard weekend to get things done. History teacher didn’t really give me any hope of finishing the never ending work by yet piling on another 3 A4 pages to be copied out word for word. What’s the point? She didn’t even look at it last time and it’s about as helpful just reading it ourselves without doing any copying.


No entries on the “Trad diary” as I call it; no time for ‘extra’ writing. No time for anything ‘extra’ like playing on the Xbox and chilling or reading a novel or anything. If I do have to read anything, it’s to do with school work and I’m really suffering from the lack of escapism; everything is to do with school and if it isn’t I would call it time wasting. But hey there is light at the end of the tunnel with Halloween and I’m sure we’ll get lots more yummy work to do. When really does it ever end?Generally I learn more but not being pressured into the learning and I learn more in my own time.


I also want to buy some books. I actually just like books, not necessarily the reading of them but for the aesthetic quality of it being there. I know it’s strange. It’s like having a book collection but without reading them. Just like people collect coins and notes, but never spend them. If I had the free time I’d read.


Also this week, I watched the last of Electric Dreams. The documentary-type 1 hour with a family experiencing life in the 60’s, 70’s, 80’s and 90’s. Yesterday was the 90’s and the last of it. It made me really miss the 90’s with its Tony Blair, Princess Diana, Dial up internet, Windows 1995, Spice Girls, Boy bands, square lunch boxes which didn’t quite work and emptied your lunch all over the play ground, Pogs, and Gameboys. *sigh* good times. It also made me think about how we all rely on technology and frankly, I hate it.


With technology, I think we’re going backwards rather than forwards. We’ve all lost the skill in punctuation and instead, developed RSI in our thumbs from texting gibberish like “c ya l8er bbz”. No seriously, just think about it. We are so dependent on our iPods, texting, mobile phones and internet that when we’re without them, we haven’t a clue what to do with ourselves and just roam around like zombies because we’ve lost the skill in proper face to face socialising and lost the whole natural knack of recognising emotions when we talk to people.


Ok, so I’m usually on the internet most of my time, but if I wanted I could easily not be on here and I could be in town, writing a novel, learning an instrument or just doing work. I’m only on the laptop most of the time due to the need of having word processed coursework and a long distance relationship.


I don’t do phones. Mine is never on and many people can tell you that straight away. I just can’t handle that part of technology and nor do I have an iPod because I can survive without having my music for 6 hours and I prefer having silence to music anyway. Texting was never my forte. I can’t ‘simplify’ my words beyond all recognition and I just don’t like it. I think it’s a shame for the English language but whatever floats people boats and I hope those people do actually realise the sadness of it.


Well yea, I’ll shut up for this week and leave. I’m now an outcast to the civilised world. *waves*

Really need to start doing something with my life...

Alright, so it's been a bit of a hectic past week and quite a thought provoking week aswell. I started back at school last Monday and actually it wasn't too bad. I don't think I missed a whole load of work to be honest, but even so the work is piling up again.
I've been thinking aswell as what I want to do with myself and just recently I've looked back at what I've been doing for the past few years and to be honest I wasn't really going anywhere. What I mean is; building up into who I am and who I want to be. I've come to the conclusion that I've been quite a bland person for the past few years and it seems I was even unresponsive to any social side of life. I've always said to myself "oh I want to try this, that and this" and I've always made up the excuse that I was too busy or I lacked confidence to even do it. This week has been a bit different. I've come to realise that I shouldn't be sitting on the computer as soon as I come home from school and then get off of it right before I go to bed.
I come on the laptop when I get home, go on Youtube or Facebook, once I've done that I'd go onto Photobomb or FML to see if there is anything worth while seeing or reading. How boring is that? That all takes about 15 minutes worth and what do I do after I've checked all the sites? I do it again and again and again repeatedly until I go to bed. Seriously, something needs to be done and I'm the only person to change my ways.
I don't really want to talk to my children 20 or so years down the line and they ask "Mummy? what did you do when you where a teenager?" and I reply with "I was really boring and spent my time on the laptop from 3 till 11 at night doing the same thing and searching for pointless things. I never really went out with my friends and I wasn't very social at all. I never went to formals or parties" That ain't good is it?
Alright so it's better than what some teenagers do these days where they stand on the streets till 1 am, drink, smoke, and then decide for a joke to stab the next passerby. Well it's good that I'm not getting in trouble, but it's not the best to be a recluse.
Take for example, right now I’m on blogger and writing this senseless article about how I want to be that bit daring, go out with my mates, go to a party or two, do what I want to do and be that tad bit rebellious and not care what people have to think.



So I’ve got the conclusion that:


A. I need to get out and socialise with my friends that little bit more.


B. Get off the laptop more and do what I want to do like read or something. Like the things I keep saying I have no time for and actually do them.


C. Realised that you only live once, and you got to take all the chances that are given to you.


D. Stop sitting around and thinking “oh I wonder what people will think if I dressed that way etc” i.e. Just go out there and do it and forget about what they think and if they do have a problem and not accepting who I am, they aren’t obviously my friends.


E. Be a bit daring and stop sitting in my comfort zone


Or should I just be a recluse, nerd and have no friends?


I really need the confidence and hopefully I can build that up with time.


Right now the laptop is the only source of ‘socialising’ apart from school and now it’s turned into a safety net type thing that I always rely on, but that can’t be forever and something has to change soon, because I’m getting rather fed up with it. There is so much more to say about this, but I'm just too lazy to write every single thing down.

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