Really need to start doing something with my life...

Alright, so it's been a bit of a hectic past week and quite a thought provoking week aswell. I started back at school last Monday and actually it wasn't too bad. I don't think I missed a whole load of work to be honest, but even so the work is piling up again.
I've been thinking aswell as what I want to do with myself and just recently I've looked back at what I've been doing for the past few years and to be honest I wasn't really going anywhere. What I mean is; building up into who I am and who I want to be. I've come to the conclusion that I've been quite a bland person for the past few years and it seems I was even unresponsive to any social side of life. I've always said to myself "oh I want to try this, that and this" and I've always made up the excuse that I was too busy or I lacked confidence to even do it. This week has been a bit different. I've come to realise that I shouldn't be sitting on the computer as soon as I come home from school and then get off of it right before I go to bed.
I come on the laptop when I get home, go on Youtube or Facebook, once I've done that I'd go onto Photobomb or FML to see if there is anything worth while seeing or reading. How boring is that? That all takes about 15 minutes worth and what do I do after I've checked all the sites? I do it again and again and again repeatedly until I go to bed. Seriously, something needs to be done and I'm the only person to change my ways.
I don't really want to talk to my children 20 or so years down the line and they ask "Mummy? what did you do when you where a teenager?" and I reply with "I was really boring and spent my time on the laptop from 3 till 11 at night doing the same thing and searching for pointless things. I never really went out with my friends and I wasn't very social at all. I never went to formals or parties" That ain't good is it?
Alright so it's better than what some teenagers do these days where they stand on the streets till 1 am, drink, smoke, and then decide for a joke to stab the next passerby. Well it's good that I'm not getting in trouble, but it's not the best to be a recluse.
Take for example, right now I’m on blogger and writing this senseless article about how I want to be that bit daring, go out with my mates, go to a party or two, do what I want to do and be that tad bit rebellious and not care what people have to think.



So I’ve got the conclusion that:


A. I need to get out and socialise with my friends that little bit more.


B. Get off the laptop more and do what I want to do like read or something. Like the things I keep saying I have no time for and actually do them.


C. Realised that you only live once, and you got to take all the chances that are given to you.


D. Stop sitting around and thinking “oh I wonder what people will think if I dressed that way etc” i.e. Just go out there and do it and forget about what they think and if they do have a problem and not accepting who I am, they aren’t obviously my friends.


E. Be a bit daring and stop sitting in my comfort zone


Or should I just be a recluse, nerd and have no friends?


I really need the confidence and hopefully I can build that up with time.


Right now the laptop is the only source of ‘socialising’ apart from school and now it’s turned into a safety net type thing that I always rely on, but that can’t be forever and something has to change soon, because I’m getting rather fed up with it. There is so much more to say about this, but I'm just too lazy to write every single thing down.

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