Gook on Gook

Ok, I need to blog more. It’s a good start for any writer and at this stage of the year, I want to be a writer now. Why? Because I have a little crush for it. Ever since I got a diary in P5 for my birthday (many thanks to Holly Wales, I still remember), I have been writing in it. Yes, the very same book. I only really write if anything good has happened or significant which would be interesting to the reader in the future. It would be rather boring if they sat and read 3 pages on when and which way I got my hair cut, although it is interesting to know that I haven’t had my hair cut since June before holidays and I’m not intending for it to be cut anytime soon.



Ever since Alan Bennett first appeared on TV, no not the 70’s or 80’s, but two weeks ago when I first ‘met’ him while sitting on the sofa as I glanced up and down from the laptop screen and vaguely taking in what he was saying about himself, I’ve been intrigued in his writing and this strange writer he keeps referring to called Virginia Woolf. More and more I became interested in how he used the English language, style and techniques.

He’s inspired me to write and that has happened to me several times throughout my short life. Watching the Anne Frank film inspired me to write and write and then publish it. Of course you can never have a more famous diary writer her because of what she went through. However, I feel that my diaries are maybe that little bit more special; it started life with a girl of 9 and has now progressed to a young woman of 17 preparing herself for a turbulent but yet enjoyable life. It has seen the changes in morals, beliefs, and intruded on personal goings on between peers, parents and relationships. It is that little bit more special. Though, I’m not the only one to be writing a diary during those years as many people do find writing a sort of comfort and friend during that period of hardship. Many diaries, once the person has finished their life, couldn’t be bothered, or simply has given up on writing due to more important appointments, is simply discarded and thrown out, forgotten about, or locked away never to be read again. Only very few diaries would be published and even then they have to pass the scrupulous eye of the editor or publisher and may get turned down. My diary is no more special than anyone else’s, but I would think it to be a little more interesting than an adults.


Anne Frank’s diaries are the best known in the world and have inspired many people to take on diary writing but to no avail has anyone beaten her. To have your diary to be become a best seller, it has to be different, exciting, interesting, generally make everyone feel like they relate to you and allow them to go through the same emotions you had while writing it. You can’t make you life exciting, interesting, or different if it really isn’t like that. But if it naturally is like that and you still have time to write it all down, well you could be onto a winner. In fact, just thinking about it, a writer must choose his words wisely as even then, you could write all this exciting things down and yet not create that excitement within the reader due to using non-descriptive or the ‘right’ words.


I’m repeating myself and not really thinking this over. As you can tell it’s just thoughts being written down. Please note this.


Once I met Alan Bennett, he always seems to be saying what I write. Strange but anyway who cares. His style of writing, or talking for that matter, is slow and I don’t mean he talks slow and strings out his words for more than it is needed. It’s wordy but necessary to be able to understand it and also make it funny. His ‘jokes’ are well planned and to be able to understand them, you must listen. His plays are also award winning and when talking about his life when his was younger, I can almost relate to him which is useful, including talking about his shyness.


Unfortunately, many of today’s generation have a lack of concentration to even sit down for 10 minutes to listen, read or write for that matter. They don’t have blogs, or very very few do. Instead they have Bebo and Facebook in which it’s like “collect 500 ‘unknown’ friends and get a WKD gift voucher”, i.e. it’s a game and a goal to collect as many people as you can; people who can track you down, hack your account, get your IP address and the track your home address using that...I’ve scared myself now.


People need to slow down a bit more, read a book or two, listen and gain knowledge from their elders and then set out on life with the knowledge they have gained so that they do not make stupid mistakes. Many ‘elders’, infact I bet you all of them, have gone through ‘it’ (insert whatever dilemma you like) and can tell you before your own has happened, how to avoid it and make it less painful so you can then enjoy life that little bit better. Most people when they reach the middle age mark always say they wish they could have done or not done this or that and to really make each day count.


I choose to write because it lets me know of my past and thus let me shape my future. A little piece of my history, in ink or pencil on paper, and that makes me feel good and gives me a sort of rush to know that my children and future generations will read it and hopefully cherish it. It allows them to know my weaknesses and mistakes and hopefully allows them to make less mistakes and to enjoy their life even more than myself. I want them to know that ‘Grandma’, or ‘Omi’ as I would rather like to be referred to when I hit that age, went through it herself at 14.


I should be writing an essay on enzymes right about now. Meh


I have a passion for writing and was instructed to continue writing creatively. I will write creatively, when I have the time and that I get more into writing, but for now I’ll stick to diary keeping and once I’ve found that a little bit too easy, I will then go ahead and write creatively and for more of a challenge.


I’ve also considered journalism because I like writing and I like history. So it would be a good chance to be included in a little bit of local history; if they ever quote a local piece of work such as an article for a source, my name would be on the bottom of it and hopefully spelt right and I’ll make sure they do.


I have a tremendous interest in history and to be quoted in a future source of some sort, such as one of my diary entries on a topic in a history exam, would be rather pleasing as I’ve seen some personal accounts so far in A-level history.


Wish I could write this much so fast for school essays.


What to do, What to do?


I’m currently heading to be a pathologist. Well, actually I’m not because I have a long way to go before I ever get there and as I do, I always change my mind. Writing is a hard job, but I’d get so much pleasure and satisfaction from it and I suppose whatever job I love and feel good about, I should aim for it. Tough decision. Money or pleasure? Secure or not so secure? I rather take the pleasure but I’m not too keen on being unsecure, sure that’s what husbands are for, bread winners and someone to fall back on when it doesn’t quite work out. You’re going say that’s sexist now, but I’m not trying to be.


So, sacrifice some time to writing than a-levels and then completely change my opinion on writing and it doesn’t work out and then I don’t have good enough a-levels for the ‘original’ career? (whatever that career was)Or turn to writing, work hard at a passion, love it, wallow in it, succeed and become a best seller at something you love. Sounds good but still not as stable because everyone looks at qualifications instead and bases the person on that if I do sacrifice my studies. Hmm, I’ll have to think about this one. One can take writing courses. One doesn’t need a great salary to live and it’s better live on minimal rather than indulging in luxuries, being greedy, and then ending up in debt. Start small, keep small and then you won’t have far to fall. Easy peasy.


Anyway, I’ll stop now before going on about something else and getting lost and unable to climb back. Just a few thoughts for the day or week, I guess.


Could do a 30 day challenge soon? What you think?


New Years revolution should be...


Do what you enjoy and not what makes you miserable. You only live once so make use of it. Live each day like it’s your last, and progress in writing more.


...Nothing hard or anything.