Jack of all trades, a master of none

Do you ever just listen to a song on repeat?

Do you ever just go on the same websites 20 times a day?

It’s been a while since I have blogged and to be honest I have been preoccupied with failing a lot of things. I read back on the blog to see what I wrote about and to be honest, not much has changed since. I forgot how to blog. Since the last time I wrote I’ve gained an approximate 4 qualifications. Some of those qualifications aren’t the greatest but they are there and it’s something I can add to my CV. However, even with the addition of qualifications I haven’t seemed to further my ‘career’ in any aspects apart from being a professional ‘flunk’.

Some of the things I used to be good at a few years ago have now gone out the window. For example, typing. I used to be typing non-stop all day everyday whether it was writing up assignments or essays. However, now that the aspect of my course has changed and there are no essays or assignments to type. Instead it’s all handwritten. I used to be very good with computers, for example databases and website design. I’ve spent so long not doing those things that I’ve now forgot how to do them. Instead I feel I have gain little in the way of skills and lost the skills that I once did have. And I feel real poorly thinking about that.

If I had to write down skills, I’d be hard pushed. I don’t read, I don’t play an instrument, I don’t design, I don’t volunteer, I don’t exercise, I don’t socialise etc.

I could go on and on.  However, I have some sort of qualification in really random areas. I have a foundation qualification in wines and another level 3 qualification in sailing. That’s all well and good if I’m sitting out in a tiny dinghy floating out to sea sampling the difference between a Boschendal and Beaujolais. I have various qualifications or a little experience in various things but never have I stuck with one thing throughout my whole life. I tell a lie. I have. The one thing I’ve stuck with my whole life is… starting one thing, getting bored, and then leaving it. It’s happened with violin, Brownies (guides), swimming, sailing, drawing, reading, writing, gardening, gaming, crochet, knitting etc. For just once in my life I would love to have something that I loved and worked on and carried it through to the bitter end so that I can be a master and not a jack of all trades. I have read articles that explain that this is actually a positive aspect to life and that I haven’t narrowed my interests down. However, I feel that being a jack of all trades gives off an air that for a career I wouldn’t be with a company long enough and would make them feel insecure that I would get bored and leave them. And that frightens me and that that might be the one thing that puts them off hiring me in the future. As a result of only dipping my toe into various areas, I feel like an empty shell and have no real substance, backbone or opinion that could carry me through life.